It was a descent into what the Museum calls "the
Burrow"—an image famous in the Kafka stories, of course, especially the
one by that very name. The congested
dark, the maze-like confusion and comfort, the peace and fascination with the
elaborate burrow which stands for your consciousness, your mind, your work—all of
those things and none of them. How you
love and hate that hermetically sealed privacy of soul, how you want and don't want
company there. It's an image from Kafka's
"The Burrow" I bought into at once, but this stairway, lit in a
heat-lamp red, goes down into a dreadful depth, and those who designed the
museum have stripped all elements of refuge and retreat from this cellar lined
with file cabinets, drawers opened now and then to reveal letters, manuscript
pages, glassed-in first editions of the books.
You wander in it like in a glossy, smothering maze, its harsh surfaces
making you forget those simultaneous moments of contentment, of
self-containment, like when the narrator of "The Burrow" talks about
the peace and silence of the place:
But the most beautiful thing about my burrow is the stillness. Of
course, that is deceptive. At any moment it may be shattered and then all will
be over. For the time being, however, the silence is still with me. For hours I
can stroll through my passages and hear
nothing except the rustling of some little creature, which I immediately reduce to silence between my jaws, or the
pattering of soil, which draws my attention to the need for repair; otherwise all is
still. The fragrance of the woods floats in; the place feels both warm and
cool. Sometimes I lie down and roll about in the passage with pure joy. When
autumn sets in, to possess a burrow like mine, and a roof over your head, is
great good fortune for anyone getting on in years. Every hundred yards I have
widened the passages into little round cells; there I can curl myself up in
comfort and lie warm. There I sleep the sweet sleep of tranquility, of
satisfied desire, of achieved ambition; for I possess a house. I do not know
whether it is a habit that still persists from former days, or whether the
perils even of this house of mine are great enough to awaken me; but invariably
every now and then I start up out of profound sleep and listen, listen into the
stillness which reigns here unchanged day and night, smile contentedly, and
then sink with loosened limbs into still profounder sleep. (Complete
Stories, tr. Willa & Edwin Muir, Schocken, 1972, p.327).
That was the Burrow I knew and loved—the comfort of the mind and of the
work. And of course, Kafka is having fun
at its expense: not that of the mind or the work, but of the comfort. Of course the stillness of the Burrow is about to be shot
to hell in the narrator's anxieties, his fear of encroachment, but it's there
as well in the story. The Kafka Museum,
however, has made the Burrow into a Bureau, a bleak landscape of drawers and
paperwork that taps into one of the things we call Kafkaesque—the nightmarish
modern landscape of duplicate copies, signings and cosigning, initialing and
dating each page. It's only part of the Burrow, but the part we recognize at once.
And the part that inhabits dozens of my nightmares. No wonder it unsettles
me, this museum cellar, striking fear into the only person I know who messed up
three attempts at applying for a library card (Name? Address? Phone #?) because
of my phobia of filling out forms. It is a gauntlet of cabinets: I test one, then another, but the only drawers that open are the ones they have opened already. Of course I want to look at the first editions, want the sights I expected from a still and safe museum, but the landscape is smothering me, the passage is too tight.
Probably every good museum
gives each visitor, at its best, a sense of "what it was like being
there"—an atmosphere, an insight, a tone of setting and design. I had glimpsed the Kafkaesque bureaucratic
mazes in the fiction, inhaled their unhealthy disquiet like secondary
smoke. But it was here, on the killing
floor of the Burrow, that I felt it all most viscerally, knew why I had been
scared to descend those steps, and that my apprehension was right and modern and
profound. And personal. I looked for the exit. I wanted this to be over. ©2014 Michael Williams
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