I would imagine that in our time, with the exceptions
of Rome and Jerusalem, Turin has become the most frequent destination of the
Christian pilgrim. After all, it is the
Duomo of Turin, the Cattedrale di San Giovanni Battista that holds the famous Shroud.
And
for Rhonda, and a little bit for me, we found ourselves moved in the middle of
May on a pilgrimage of sorts, to view an artifact that I doubt and that she
thinks might be.
Yes,
there are nuances and details, spaces between my skepticism and her
entertaining possibilities. She’s a good
Catholic girl, and I am one of those people not hardwired for belief, but this would have something to do with the
both of us, we figured, so we left Turin’s Porta Susa—a long and horizontal
(and disappointingly immaculate) train station in the western part of the city,
bound for the cathedral by a meandering city bus.
Perhaps
on trips like this, the pilgrim attunes his mind to approaches. Perhaps it was why the passengers on the bus
volunteered to locate our stop for us, an older man signaling well beforehand
the prossima fermata virtually in
front of the Duomo. As always, a simple
and benign prego to our thanks, the
helpful and genuine friendliness of everyone we encountered from the train
station to the presence of the Shroud a testament to civility at the least, to
the courtesy of this solid and open city.
Turin struck
my imagination as a city of piazzas and colonnades. Of course, you could say the same of many of
the large Italian cities, but somehow in Turin this arrangement called
attention to itself, nowhere so strikingly as around the Duomo. There sat the major cathedral of the city,
San Giovanni Batista, blockish and externally plain when compared with its counterparts
in Florence and Milan, tented and scaffolded in parts by the continual
reconstruction you see around the monuments of this country. Hugging a brick wall to our right, we walked
a block or so and turned right, as we had been guided, toward the Giardini
Real, the expansive park that abuts the cathedral and the Palazzo Real, the
grand palace of the city.
It was here
that the pilgrimage began in full, and the shops lining the streets—not simply
the cramped, provisional booths selling photographs and wall-hangings of the
Shroud (and even, on one occasion, a splendidly blasphemous dish towel), but
also more respectable shops, it seemed, their wares a bit more permanent and a
lot more expensive. This was the stuff
of medieval pilgrimage, where like the 1st century Temple in
Jerusalem itself, part of the space was ceded to Mammon.
This mercenary
part of the journey didn’t bother me.
Perhaps it was my cynicism, in full flourish since we had learned that
the Shroud itself, not its replica double, would be on display this summer in
Italy. At the time we discovered this, I
remember thinking, “And the difference is…?” Because it makes no difference if
the original Shroud is not the Shroud,
I thought. What, after all, could
distinguish one version from another when both are images of some imagined thing,
a representation of a collective desire for something to be more than it is?
Here we were
on the sidewalk now, passing booths will all kinds of food—nourishment for the
pilgrims, no doubt, though the sandwich of Sicilian sausage could also have
been something more than it was. The
highlight of the movement through the booths was a young vendor selling
pastries, who told me, in impeccable and subversive English, “That will be one
hundred dollars. We fill them with
diamonds, you know.”
We had been
told to expect hours of waiting. The day
was warm, and the prospect seemed miserable to me, as the one thing I hate more
than lines is hot weather, but as we passed through a friendly but thorough
security check and into a tented walkway, the temperature was not unpleasant
and we seemed to be moving at an unanticipated pace. All around us were languages we did not
speak: I hear Italian, of course, but French and German as well. I heard the recognizable inflections of
American English, but missed the words in our surprisingly swift movement in
the queue.
We were bound
toward shadows together, I thought. And
for some reason, it was no Biblical verse that came to mind, but the last lines
of Bergman’s Seventh Seal:
They move away
from the dawn in a solemn dance away towards the dark lands while the rain
cleanses their cheeks of the salt from their bitter tears.
Toward the dark lands we hastened, now being divided into
small groups. I clung to Rhonda out of
the silly fear that the ushers would somehow divide us, and we would enter the
presence of the Shroud separately, losing each other in the crowded
shadows. Fortunately, nothing like that
was remotely possible, and we entered the cool dank air of the Duomo and were
guided to a long, illumined display that I first mistook for the Shroud itself
until, on closer approach, it was evident that what stood in front of us was a
photograph. A display in several
languages described the Shroud for us, pointing out—almost like a lecturer’s
highlighting, complete with pointer and magnified
slides, the visual evidence marshalled for a crucified body, lacerated and
pierced in the hands, feet, and side.
When you knew
where to look, you were prepared for the viewing. Even the pastries are filled with diamonds.
Into the
hushed darkness we were guided, cautioned against flash photography, of course (sh the attached picture of the Shroud is not my own). This attention to protocol intensified the shadow, made it a place outside of place, the courteous whispers of elderly ladies
arranging us in rows and tiers before the famous artifact. I thought of Rudolf Otto’s
famous definition of the numinous: mysterium
tremendum et fascinans. The idea of the holy as mysterious, inspiring fear
or awe and yet drawing in or attracting the beholder, and doing both at the
same time.
Beyond a
ranging curiosity, seeing something that you owe it to yourself to see if it is
on display, I confess to having no sense of the numinous on the fabric. Yet in the hush of the room, the devotion was
palpable: what these fifty people or so had carried with them from the reaches
of the city, the continent, perhaps the world.
To some, this was the grail at the end of a journey, and to say, as has
become customary, that it was the journey that mattered more than the
arrival—well, that’s presumptuous, to tell this assembly of the devoted what
meaning they were to gather in the presence of the Shroud and, even more presumptuously,
how they were to gather it. As for me, I
needed no artifact to notice that the quiet around me was welcoming, that
unlike the religion I have often encountered in my experience of coming up, of
my struggles with a faith in the fifty years before I sat it aside at last,
this was a quiet that beckoned me in with no agenda and a simple, abiding
silence. It seemed like a place at the
table I might have taken had it been offered, or had I seen it, years ago.
Emerging into the spacious, far more secular
grounds of the Palazzo Real, I was glad for the light despite the stillness I
had left behind. I could explain away the Shroud in a dozen ways, just as its defenders could stretch explanation to defend it. But all this was wasted argument, between those of faith and those of skepticism, or perhaps more accurately, between people whose faiths settle differently. I took those thoughts from the quiet space, realizing in that first breath of commotion and Palazzo and sun that, if
the world is all I have, it contains places of turmoil and calm, and that,
perhaps, is more than I could bargain for. ©2015 Michael Williams
So beautifully said!
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